This weight - it's weight I've lost before. That's the saddest part about it for me. I know perfectly well how to lose it, but keeping it off? That's a different story.
I've always been a bit overweight, even as a kid. But a few years ago it got really out of control - I gained about 75 lbs in the space of 2 years. INSANE. How did this happen?! When I finally got up the nerve to step on a scale, I was shocked. I had no idea how bad it was. I couldn't see it in the mirror. Somehow, without even realizing it, I'd gone from a size 14 to a size 20/22. In hindsight, of course I know how it happened - terrible eating habits, sedentary lifestyle, bad relationship, depression. It all added up and put me on the fast track for obesity.
I lost 20...gained it back. I lost 40...gained it back. Lost 25...yeah, you see where this is going. I tried to do every one of these sorry attempts on my own. Obviously that wasn't working for me.
At the end of last year, the commercials came on the air. You know the ones I'm talking about. Yeah - the Jennifer Hudson commercials. Holy amazing transformations, Batman! I knew a bit of how Weight Watchers worked already; years ago my mom joined to get the books and then never went to another meeting. JHud just looked so amazing, I got to thinking maybe I should get on the WW wagon.
But how could I justify spending money for a company to tell me how to lose weight - something I know how to do?
Easily. ACCOUNTABILITY. Knowing I am already paying to go to that meeting every week. Knowing I'm going to be seeing the same people once a week, and they have similar goals. Knowing I have to get on the scale in front of another human being, rather than hiding alone in the bathroom to see what damage I've done to myself. It all helps me stay on track.
And those star stickers I get for every 5 pounds I lose? Those don't hurt either.
I've been on the plan for a little over 8 weeks. Here's where I started, and where I am as of last week's weigh in.
1/15/11 - Weight: 250.2, BMI: 38.0
3/12/11 - Weight: 231.2, BMI: 35.1
19 pounds in 8 weeks is not too shabby, methinks.